Ergh!

Ok, so the past couple of months have been nothing but drama drama drama among my group of friends, it was for this reason that I decided to not go to DVC this semester, in order to get away from the drama. It does nothing but depress me.

Nonetheless it seems like I am involved anyway, and people are expecting me to not take a side. The fact is that while I do not want to add to any more drama, while I don't want anyone to be upset, I do know where my loyalties lie.

It all started (in my opinion) when a former classmate (and friend) of the group came back from nearly a year of living in New York. Prior to going to New York he complained that his stepmom was making his life miserable and wouldn't allow him any freedom. While I do think his stepmom was strict I think that she was trying to enforce discipline on her out of control stepson.

Anyway, he comes back, and then all this drama starts, him and my friend JT started saying that Lloyd was splitting the group up. They went as far as to say that Lloyd made Russell "his bitch". Now Russell is my all-time best friend and if I hear people talking shit about him you have my word I am going to stick up for him like a friend does. So anyway I was really pissed when I heard about all this, mainly because I knew it wasn't true. Russell wanted Lloyd to stick around because he had hoped to get music done with him, and also Lloyd was in a depressed state because his girlfriend had dumped him. I encouraged JT to hang out with Russell when Lloyd wasn't around so they could get his side. When they did they both agreed that it was just "stupid, immature drama, the immature people just need to grow up." I thought it was the end of all these issues, but apparently it wasn't.

My former friend (who I am not going to mention his name) would always say all this violent shit, and he said he loved Russell but "wouldn't hesitate to kick his ass if it boiled down to it". I was beginning to get really concerned for my brother's safety. One time my former friend told me about a gang-related murder that was happening down the street from where he lived, apparently he was involved with the people who were committing the murder and had arranged for these guys to come and kill this guy because he had threatened my former friend and all his friends and their families (including mine, and this person didn't even know I existed). The last thing I want is to be connected with gangs.

Anyway, yesterday Russell's sister's boyfriend Mike posts a status update saying that someone had threatened Eve (Russell's sister) with a knife. I asked him who he was talking about, but I had a hunch it was my former friend even before he replied back saying it was. I began really freaking out, I knew that my friends were all hanging out with this guy, and Lloyd was also talking to Mike and at that point I was really worried that if my former friend found out about this he would go berserk on everyone. Fortunately that didn't happen, my former friend simply removed himself from the group and deleted his Facebook page. But man was I worried.

As it stands now we all have a bunch of stuff that belongs to this guy that we need to give back to him at some point, which we will do, but that will be it. He also has a bunch of CDs that I lent him before he went to New York, a bunch of old recordings from me and Russell's band that have since been erased.

I later talked to Russell and he explained that this guy also bad-mouthed him to his sister. What the fuck kind of friend does such a thing? If you have a problem with somebody you should tell it to their face, if you can't bring yourself to do that then don't go talking shit about someone. Keep it to yourself or talk to a counselor or someone. But you do NOT badmouth your friends to each other and especially not to their family.

Anyway the person who I am concerned the most about now is JT. JT is another friend of mine who I consider to be a brother, he's been really good to me, when it was revealed that my girlfriend turned out to be a fraud (story for another time) JT called me up several times and asked if I was ok, he said if I ever needed to talk to someone I could talk to him. I trust JT with my life. This whole incident really upset JT and pissed him off. What I am worried about is him jumping to conclusions without knowing both sides of the story. I encourage him to talk to everyone, and I mean EVERYONE in the group, find out everyone's individual side of the story and then make a decision on where he stands. I really would hate to lose JT as a friend and I would hate it if me wanting to hang out with him would cause more drama among my friends.

In the end though it is JT who I agree with. This whole thing was stupid and really immature, and I can honestly say that certain people really need to grow up.